Well I am finally feeling better and seem to have a better outlook on this year. My hubby was offered a part time job back in October at the Detention Center as a maintenance technician (his field he went to school and was trained for). He jumped at the chance to possibly move away from his county job and get back into his trade. Since he took that job we have been working to pay down debt, build some savings and plan a vacation. It has been hard - he has had one full 24 hours off a week. Working nights with the county and 3 days a week with the city is a lot. He was let go from that job last Monday. He is content with it, I am beginning to be. It hit me hard. The first thing I thought of was there goes the vacation we were planning to see my cousins and visit the Sonoma County Fair. Selfish I know. There have been several times this year where I have felt that I keep giving up the things I want - a new car, a vacation, a night out to name a few. Notice I said want. Want and need are two very different things. I need to spend time with my husband (and I do, that is part of why I am a stay at home wife and mother), I need to spend time with my boys, I need to pay bills, I need to grocery shop, I need to help take care of my MIL the list goes on. I mostly need time with the Lord.
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Today I am thankful that God does supply all my needs. He knows what is best for me and my family.